Saying Grace

Something about this truth set me thinking, being that I was already on a spiritual high induced by that visit to the Big Boss. Yes, I had so many things to be grateful for. The material things I do not bother to list. Nor the other emotional props, I've been blessed with. I always had plenty- plenty of everything, including problems. But then I carried those too like a badge, proud of having problems, because I could deal with them.

Then somewhere things changed. I lost everything- especially my enthusiasm, my will, my protective shield of innocence. I became extremely cynical, an ugly monstrosity who would break into tears, be ungrateful for all I had, while hankering for what I might never have had but believed to be lost to me. A disbeliever.

If I am here today, it is only due to the tremendous faith and support I have imbibed from my family. And when I say that I mean, my extended family. My family of course, like all families is headed by the strong leaders- with a preponderance of strong women- my friends- in the physical and virtual realms. Women I have met and those I have never met. Yet I have sought them out daily and at times hourly for support and sustenance. Women like the Sunset Angel and her group of strong people who have always been there for me for these past seven years. Tara, Elizabeth, Heidi, Danielle, Pam, Susie, Judi, the list is too long? They have always been there for me like a safety net. And still, their message was clear- I had to deal with my problems for my self- 'they' wouldn't sort them out for me. But what they gave me was priceless- a faith in me!

Recently, I 'met' Ellen, who has had a most remarkable effect on me. And Teri. So all you who think I am a big strong woman, just remember I'd be nothing without my bigger stronger family. My cup brimmeth over! Heres to you all- Thank you!